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Something a little lighter for you before we get to part 2 of the last blog! 

I have wanted to tell my story for long but first of all when I was "In it" that wasn't a possibility and secondly to save my soul I avoided it at all cost because it was mentally excruciating but now it is time~

There came a moment one day when I was bending over trying to get Richie's shoe on which is nothing like just putting a shoe on a kid lol it's a battle all the way because he hates shoes ! I kept having to come up for air because I was so unhealthy ~ I knew in that moment there was no way I will be able to take care of this beautiful boy as he grows and I could no longer continue on like I was . No more excuses , no more poor me the Autism mom who has it soooooo bad , just no more , I was done done done ..Everything I was , was gone , lost and I missed me so much! 

So I began a Journey , despite the fact I had absolutely zero time , I began digging deep whenever I had moments , late at night , early in the morning , the few hours Richie was in school if he was in school ... I read countless self development books , I learned about nutrition , I started realizing if I didn't take care of me there wouldn't be a me to worry about . This was not just because I was physically unhealthy but my depression was as severe as it gets ... (more on that in another blog) I started exercising (I began putting that 1st after healthy eating of course and put off other things like cleaning etc) 

  I know that no matter what is going on in life if something is that important to you , you do it period. 

To the mom's like me , it is crucial to your existence and your family that you get Truly Healthy Mind, Body, and Soul . Going through the Journey I know how absolutely life transforming it is . The constant Dr Apts, Iep meetings , the every day 24/7 care, lack of sleep  (it took me about 6 months to start sleeping past 3 or 4 am when Richie moved ) taking care of the house , bills, laundry ( when Richie was home I did 4 loads of just Richie laundry every singe day . Every morning I had to strip his entire bed down and wash it .) yard work bahahahaha! 

As a mom we always tend to do everything for everyone else first and put ourselves up on some pedestal for it . That's complete bullshit . You can't be good to anyone if you are depressed , depleted, unhealthy, and overwhelmed . You need to come first,  if not it's just an excuse your using and your only fooling yourself , period .

How do you do this ? Stay tuned ... I am working on some amazing stuff to help you !

Through my Journey I have learned exactly what I'm here for and that's to help the Autism mom's heal like I did and bring awareness to their needs to the community so we can all come  together to help .....

Part 2 from the last blog coming soon! 

Love Maria 

xoxoxoxoxoxo